Praying for sun

June 28th, 2008 by ahmain

Remember when we never met each other?
I understood I’d never be alone
the best of friends…just like sister and brother
don’t know what to do now, I never meant to feel this way…

Just sent off a good friend yesterday. He is going back to his home country forever. They cried, but I wonder, did he find out that I did too, after he turned into the gate. =p Take care my best buddy. It’s gonna be a hard way without you here, I’ve to pick up loads that u were carrying for me all these whiles…farewell~

It’s Saturday. The weather is OK…no more raining. The weather wasn’t that great in the past few days, cold & windy once I stepped out of the house, also rained a little. Well this is stupid England, been raining constantly in the "lovely summer".
I was supposed to wake up at 9am, to have a tuition with the tutee George at 10am, but I woke at 9.45am instead. Luckily his dad was late sending him over…
Well, today is a rather relaxing lesson for us. Why? I just need to give him the revision as he found that the lesson is getting harder. ~~ 
Now…George’s dad has something else to deal with, obviously I have turned up to be a "baby sister" at the same time. Had him here for lunch. Another cool British that loves Chinese food very much~ We had lemongrass chicken with fried udon~ I can tell he loves it very very much! well done~~

Both of us looking out to seek for his dad’s car…obviously he was too late than he supposed to be. "Oh, where is the sun?" George asked, "When will the sky be clear?"
sullen, the grey skies threaten and glower…
pavements, all rain-washed, shine/
suddenly, sunshine for an hour, then the cruel wind’s shrill whine.

obviously this is not a good summer. better than none, i’m still hoping and praying here for a sunshine brand new day. With all the clouds and doubts to be cleared. 
It’s kinda funny though, how life can change in a matter of day, just because i wish so? I don’t really like rainy day now…it reminds me of my much loved late mum. Mummy would come into my bedroom, wrap me in a blanket and tuck me up tightly in the bed and would plump up the pillow round my head, so I felt completely safe. I hate having rain in this stranger land…it reminds me of all the warmth which i miss a lot now…which i wanted it to be back so much…
anyway, praying for the sun and hoping everything would be fine for us. =)

Thanks mum, I’ve completed and have the best achievement now, for the studies at this stage. Though i’m still lost on where to head to next, but i definitely appreciate all these and would like to say a thousand thanks of what i’ve got now. to be shared with u–my beloved late mum.
*I love u*

For Friends that were around me during this hard time…

March 11th, 2007 by ahmain

Buddies…thanks for everything that u guys have done for me, and thanks to those who helped me get through the hard time…

i couldn’t find any better way to express my thankful thought but, i just wanna let u guys knw, that i love u all so much!

i think mummy is in the heaven now, she will agree with me as well, that is, to hold u guys tight and never let go anymore! =)

feel free to read my blogs at multiply then…i’m not in time to inform/explain to some of u that wat had happened to me, and pls do not blame me for not in time to reply sms or answer u guys call when i was back to M’sia last 3 weeks.

Take care everyone!

感触.心疼…

August 14th, 2006 by ahmain

What had happened to the world my dear? The series of unfornutate events…Wars between Israeli and Lebanon, London planes terror plot foiled, stupid Typhoon in China and Taiwan…lots and lots of local news, more and more terrible things…Godsh….

Anyway, the things which worry me the most are gonna be those happen to the ppl around me, those who are closest, dearest to me~ I had a bad news from one of my Best frens last saturday. Sooooo depressed after hearing the news from you my dear…I’m so sorry I couldn’t be with u when u were undergoing these…be strong please! Life is tough, u need to be strong and struggle hard through it, i believe u can do it girl!! Wish u will share me the toughness in the future, do not hesitate to look for me by mail ok? though the distance keeps us apart, but i m alwiz here to offer my concern my help dear…

*Hugssss*

云,其实这是我专为你而写的…真的很想透过文字来表达我对你的关心,但另一方面又不想将之表现得太刻意,最后呢, 决定以这半掩半露的方式来写啦! 那夜接到你的来电,说明一切后, 真的很突然…你也比我想象中坚强得多! 电话那头落泪的人反而是我, 好糗! 在那刻,我真的很想冲向你, 给你来个"吓死人的拥抱"啊! =P

想想, 我俩真的太久没见了…换过来诉苦的人变作是我, 哈! 无奈啊…这人越大, 须面临的烦恼当然越多, 常跟别人说:"看开些就好"! 我当然也懂…但有的时候, 很多事物还真让人难以看开呢~ 看着身边亲友慢慢地离我而去…真的很想找个人让我抱抱, 痛哭一场! 怎么那么多巧合啊~ 你们不要那么快离开嘛..这儿还有我,爱你们的我啊!! 为何大家都选择让我最后知道? 是种保护? 但我真的很难受,你们了吗…………

好了…不该多写啦~ 明天要开开心心! 我是个"健康快乐的小宝宝"嘛! ^.^ Cheer up ah min!! Gambateh!!

p/s: Specially thanks to those who are aound me to support, concern me~ Also to some who don’t know wat happened but cheer me up everyday, e.g. QiuJian, JJ…thankz! QiuJian ar, talking to u is really kind of release u know? U funny one gotta jump into my best buddies list soon man! Thanksss!! ^.^

Be Strong!! To you, to me~

SuSu…碧碧

May 14th, 2006 by ahmain

哈哈! 没想到吧! Susu…这是为你而写的哦! 唉…真是的! 人家本来心情亢奋得很, 准备好踏入浴室的第一步了啊~ 就在这时, 碧碧(Susu)"狂敲"我的房门! 吓得我"花容失色",草还害本姑娘的浴巾往下溜! >.< 我还道她要向我借什么笔记, 后来跑去询问一番后,才发现自己"误上贼船", 简直是"送羊入虎口"呢! HAHA…原来啦…人家请我吃"喜饼"!!! LOL 好好吃哦! 害我现在都不想冲凉了啦~ 深怕一个不留意会将那cookies的香味个冲走嘛…Zzzz,… Hehe…ok lar…stop 38-ing here! Time to go shower! Thx oh Susu~

疯言疯语

May 14th, 2006 by ahmain

唉哟闷慌我了啦!! 母亲节嘛...拨了通长途电话给Mummy, 撒了一会儿娇...换来了一个 MuAckZzzz...然后,必须重新回到书桌前"温习"啦!恼人的考试啊!考考考!迟早让他给烤焦的啦!>.<

哈哈还是无法专心的我, 后来踏入了Darling Yy 的部落格里,晃了一晃发现昨天写的comment “原因不明地不见了!!(其实应该是根本为曾出现啦)!>.<

"不开心不开心我不开心!! 昨天明明已经给了你comment but why it doesn’t appear geh?! >.< 算了, 为了你, 我重写一遍吧!
O.S.
顿时觉得自己好伟大哦! ^.^

亲爱的Yy…

我最近也患了偏头痛啊~该是那恼人的考试害的吧! 不要跟他们做朋友了!! >.<

HRM…虽然你这儿所指的"亲爱的"不是我,但我会一直为我亲爱的你加油打气的,ok? So…Be strong!!

小美的歌,偶从中学时就喜欢了哦!现在电脑里还有她的collection oh~ 总结—>我爱抒情歌啦! ^.^

Darling…Alwiz remember that u have my support behind oh~ No matter wat happen, no matter how far u go…my wishes and support will keep "haunting" u!! Muahahahahaha~

Angel ah min sot liao~ =.=”’ 

以上就是我给Darling Yy 的文字啦..希望她这回看得到吧~这傻丫头啊...总叫人为她操心!但,我真的好希望她的出现哦!无论是当我情绪高涨,疯疯癫癫之时;抑或当我正值情绪跌入谷底,想用力往上攀爬时...真的好希望你能够出现啊!看,你看,我是多么的想念你啊! 丫头!快,明天, 即刻.马上.第一时间.买机票飞来英国啦!嘻嘻!

Hrm…okok…back to normal…Gotta start my revision lar ah min…stop day-dreaming too much!! ><

Aza Aza fighting!!

God Bless~

忧郁…

May 9th, 2006 by ahmain

忧郁的我,你见过吗? 一直认为我是个乐观主义者,凡事都会往好的方面想呢!

,内心亦同时非常地感性~尤其最近老爱自己一个人躲在宿舍里头,在那局限的小房间里一个人看些"超级感人肺腑"的戏剧啊,节片段什么的. 然后,就自己在那小空间里感性地落泪其实是呺啕大哭啦!而后还会双眼红肿得跟猪头没两样地向SUSU"炫耀"!

再说...最近重新整理了手提电脑的Media Player Playlist,才发现我尽爱听些苦到不行的歌曲.口中还会跟着节奏轻哼着...好久没唱K了,好怀念哦!

在这儿的生活...除了上课念书考试,还有...打工!唉...原本是个好好的"大学生打工经验之谈",却总是被那说话不怎么经过大脑的尖酸刻薄型经理给气坏!原本明明是个好好的快乐宝宝的我,亦被他挑战我的容忍度,结果...哈哈...过了极限!引发我对他的厌恶感,与日俱增!唉...态度变差的我,回去大马后爸妈还会爱我吗?

忧郁这话题呢...是因为我觉得最近的我,变得有些孤僻.很长一段时间都不上线的我,最近重开msn后,顿时觉得自己与他人之间的互动不知何时已静悄悄地溜走了~概叹...感觉...生活已经有点脱节了...

摆托...替我寻回以往的我吧~

海外的生活,不如想象中的轻松快活.

杂记

April 14th, 2006 by ahmain

前天和joyce讨论了男朋友该不该帮女友剥虾壳的话题. 今天又和另一为友人聊开了男女关系. 后来, 结论是à 男孩对女孩的关心未必劣于女孩的付出, 但往往无法适时地表达而已. 

这又让我嚷嚷了!什么嘛!关心对方就该让对方知道啊~别要奢望对方一味地"了解你啊, 毕竟大家都是不同的个体, /她不是你肚里的蛔虫啊…so, 时下的痴男怨女们, 请适时地放下身段, 表达你对对方的关爱吧! 

Oopss…不好意思,突然神经大条了些嘻嘻!!

今天早上睡到中午12 , 感觉超赞的! 后来和友人谈天,他说我的头发还是一样好看,不必做什么离子烫也一样顺滑~哦?是吗?哈哈哈!高兴到要死!!

后来,买了一只价格reduced的烤鸡,与Joyce分享!结果是...我俩饱到要死!sigh…

跟姐姐在skype谈天,两人竟然抬杠起来了.她一味嚷嚷说七月要跟我一块欧洲游,但我已经计划好一切了嘛!完美的英国二人行啊!>.<

还好,最后双方妥协,待她考试结束后才谈~

Hrm…waiting for my Scotland trip from next monday to friday~ =) yeah!! Spring term travel! Rock rock rock!!!

好啦...敬请期待我的欧洲之旅吧!^.^

Birmingham Shopping with JoYce~

April 12th, 2006 by ahmain

Argh…So tired though i have just had a shower.

Joyce and I went to B’ham this morning, about 12pm until 10pm only back home. Initially wanna do my Easter + Spring shopping there, planned so well to get myself at least a pair of shoes, a sling bag, and maybe some nice suits. Who knowsss…..my B’ham shopping ended up with…I bought nothing!!! >.<

Sigh…again, again!! We both spent 2 hrs eating our "lunch + dinner" in the Chinese Buffet Restaurant! God! It was 8.99 pounds per person! Somemore…we din really eat much! Actually should say, we ate sooooo little! Especially me..wasted the money only. Dunno y…the stomach not really feeling well aha~

Then..dinner finished at 7pm. Nightmare came again…Most of the shops are closed!! Especially, the shop which selling my "Animal" branded sling bag!! Yerrrr….soooooo unhappy…mood spoilt after that..yiakkkzzz…

HAha…but luckily, we both managed to get a free Anchor wildberry alcohol drink in a new-open shop~ Aisei! Untung!! 赚到!! HAha…

On the way walking back from the train station to hostel, we met with 2 guys, one indian and one japanese, i talked with the japanese. He is a lawyer in japan, comes here to study Public Health..hrm, weirdo~ but he is really quite a nice guy to chat with~ Looks mature but talks a lot! haha…i forgot his name lar..erm.."Masa"?? forgot..=p

okie…now wanna relax my legsss lar…massage massage!!

几米…摘要…

April 8th, 2006 by ahmain

我遇到貓在潛水,

卻沒遇到你。

 

我遇到狗在爬樹,

卻沒遇到你。

 

我遇到夏天飄雪,

卻沒遇到你。

 

我遇到冬天颳風,

卻沒遇到你。

 

我遇到蜘蛛都在結網了,

卻還是沒有遇到你。

 

我遇到所有的不平凡,

卻一直遇不到平凡的你。

Mr.Right/Miss Right

April 8th, 2006 by ahmain

許多人往往在抉擇伴侶時,容易東想西想,不知所措,

就是因為害怕一時做錯決定,看錯人,造成終生的遺憾。

    

    諾貝爾文學獎得主蕭伯納說:「此時此刻在地球上,

約有兩萬個人適合當你的人生伴侶,就看你先遇到哪一個,

如果在第二個理想伴侶出現之前,你已經跟前一個人發展出

相知相惜、互相信賴的深層關係,那後者就會變成你的好朋友, 

但是若你跟前一個人沒有培養出深層關係,感情就容易動搖、變心,

直到你與這些理想伴侶候選人的其中一位擁有穩固的深情,

才是幸福的開始,漂泊的結束。」

     愛上一個人不需要靠努力,只需要靠「際遇」,

是上天的安排,但是[持續地愛一個人] 就要靠「努力」,

在愛情的經營中,

順暢運轉的要素就是溝通、體諒、包容與自制(面臨誘惑有所自制)

     有許多人總是為「際遇」所迷惑與苦惱,意念不停、

慾念不斷、爭逐不散,

而忘了培養經營感情的能力才是幸福的關鍵。

所以不要去追問到底誰才是我的Mr.Right / Miss Right

 

而是要問說在眼前的伴侶關係中,我能努力到什麼程度、

成長到什麼程度,若沒有培養出經營幸福的能力,

就算真的  Mr / Miss Right出現在你身邊,

 

幸福依然會錯過的,而活在猶疑與遺憾當中,

這不就是許多愛情虛 無症的遭遇與心態嗎?

若你此刻已有一位長久相伴的伴侶,

不要再隨便三心二意地猶疑了, 

我們往往不易察覺感情中的一個陷阱,

就是「近親生慢侮」,也就是經濟學中的鐵律

「邊際效益遞減法則」,

跟你在一起越久的人,就越容易麻木與忽視,

而新鮮的「際遇」總是那麼動人可愛。

     在感情對待中,難免有摩擦與無心的傷害,

而且論得罪自己的次數累加起來最多的人,

當然是跟我們在一起最久、最親近的人;

 

而新歡呢,又還沒開始有得罪你的機會,

再加上他的刻意討好,所以新歡怎麼看怎麼可愛,

舊愛怎麼看怎麼討厭。

但別忘了,新歡身上總是有不確定的未知數,

舊愛身上就是有難得的熟悉感、確定感、信賴感。

千萬不要隨便在偶然的「際遇」中迷失了自己,

錯放了幸福溫暖的手。

 

所以蕭伯納的話,是要提醒情人不要太鑽牛角尖於尋覓那唯一,

應該把精神用在學會經營幸福的能力上,

同時也提醒我們「溺水三千,只取一瓢飲」。

      若有幸遇到了難得的伴侶,就不要再三心二意了,

因為我們永遠不知道一生何時會遇到兩萬個其中的幾個,

所以要知福惜福、活在當下。